Dear Future,

Dear future,

I have so many cliche things to say, maybe because I am a cliche person, but I will stick with my learning experiences because that's why you are on my blog right?

I wonder, why our society likes to read about others, I mean, love reading about others, that is why we have social media, and why it is s popular. I guess this is my way of adding my piece to society, but in a positive way. I don't know what to write very often, but lately my blog has been in my mind. I put a lot of thought into this, pictures and videos are really my thing, so there will probably be more pictures than words on my blog, but I want to take this seriously.

So, Dear Future,

Remember who I am, because one day, you'll learn from the past, and fix the present, for a better future.

Love,

A sincere Thought.

I was diagnosed recently with Glossopharyngeal neuralgia. If you looked this up, you will quickly find out it is in males over the age of 40...I am most most definitely a female, and I just recently turned 20.

I am not happy I am sick, but it turns out, I am happy for what this has brought me. I learned the unknown is scary, but it'll bring your family together, it'll bring together people you never expected to have around.

When I was going through treatments a few months ago, my family couldn't be there because I lived in Idaho. I had people take me to the appointments, hold my hands through the pain, take care of me through it all. The thing was, it wasn't just one person, it was countless people, some that barely knew me. I will never forget undeserving service I recieved. 

Promise, even small things, will make a big impact on others. Those people that helped me through this, I will never forget.

Service can be small,

but,

Service makes a big impact.

Babies, So many Babies.

"How many children do you want?" They say.

                            "When are you going to start your family?" She asked.

          "How many children is too much?" They question.

Well, I don't know.

Or,

I  didn't. This week is questioned about how many children SHOULD you have. Another question is SHOULD I have children? As someone who is going into the field of marriage as a life career, shouldn't I know these questions?

Here is a quote to start us off, to think about this in a deeper level. President Brigam Young, a previous prophet of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter day Saints, once said,

            "There are multitudes of pure and holy spirits waiting to take tabernacles, now what is our duty?—To prepare tabernacles for them; to take a course that will not tend to drive those spirits into the families of the wicked, where they will be trained in wickedness, debauchery, and every species of crime. It is the duty of every righteous man and woman to prepare tabernacles for all the spirits they can."

Now, what does this have to do with ANYTHING?! It has to do with everything. When I bring a child into this world, I want it to be in the home of a family who can support, cherish, love, and care for this child. Now, imagine if you were suppose to have a child, but choose not to, what happens to this child? Could this child potentially go to another family? Now, what if this family is a family where abuse in the home?

   This thought of the potential future child of mine going to a home, and being attacked because I chose not to have him or her, freaked me out. While understanding this, it helped me understand that I need to prepare now, and begin to have a home, and be the best person I can, so that when I do have children, they will come into that loving home they are in need of.

The fact is, almost every country is "downsizing" you could say. What I mean is, on average, a person has no more than 2.5 children in nearly every country. Now, my father is from four children, my family has five children, my mother is from seven, and my grandfather is out of sixteen (I think we are the reason the average is so high). I could never picture life without my large family, it seems crazy to me because of the happiness brought, and will bring. Why is this though? Why is the average so low? 

      In my family class we learn quickly how many people really do want large families! It is a dream of theirs, but they will not have it. Why? Because it is not a "trend" to have that many, it is not socially accepted in many cultures. In fact, most countries in Europe, are decreasing in births. In order to populate, at the same amount we are today, you have to "replace" you and the person who made the child. So, each couple has to have two children or more to repopulate or have the world grow. Without doing so, we actually face problems of no replacements in the work field, social security, and not to mention the growth people receive by choosing to have a child.

      Now, I am not saying their are never instances that a child cannot be born into a family, because I totally get that, I am saying though, if you are in a loving, caring environment, personally, I do know I will have many children, the love I have for these future kids already is unimaginable, I can't comprehend what it will feel like when I do have children.

PLEASE comment what you think! I would love to here from people I do and do not know!

REMINDER! You can Always post anonymous if you do not want me or others to know who wrote it!

The Family

Hey everyone! So, as many of you know, I am a marriage and family studies major. Something we are doing for the class it talking about many different topics about well, you guessed it! The family! I would LOVE for your comments to come in as I write about many different topics! I have it so you can write the comments anomalously so feel free and enjoy!
-McKayla
To start off, here are a few pictures of my family! I am so glad they are my family!

 

Sunny Side up

The News Update:
My life is Sunny with a chance of a Great Future:)
Hows that for you world?
       Throw a few more things at me and I am gonna keep going NO MATTER WHAT.
So here is the real update: The are still testing a whole wack load, but, they are starting to narrow it down and slowly figure what to do with my jaw. Until they found an amazing cure, or solution, I am just chilling at home trying to figure out how to deal with the pain...I am starting to lack on the movies I haven't seen though, so feel Free to comment good movies to watch ha.
    You know, life is still good, I am alive, have this family fighting extremely hard to help me, and the Lord is on my side. He didn't give me this trial for nothing, I still have a lot of things in my life to live for, and I WILL accomplish my goals in my life, so I am still coming at this life Hard, and that'll Never change!
Sorry I don't have a wonderful news report for you, but, my life is my life, and it's still pretty great if you ask me.
Stay Positive
And If anyone reading this EVER needs to talk, I am all ears and just a message away.
Love you all:)

                           Here are just a few photos of my family cause I really kinda like them:)

The Mash Potatoes that Made Me Cry

      This past week a family gave me dinner, the best mashed potatoes, and gravy I have had. I don't know if they read this or not, for I think it's fair to not to share names either way. Anyways, This family I feel like have gone through so much more than me, they have a big trial yet they are so happy, kind, and serving ME?! If this isn't a reality check, I don't know what is.

                                     

        I think when you are stuck in a place where you feel alone, or that you don't have anyone there for you, you need to get out of that thinking quickly. Not only that, but if you feel sorry for yourself, the best way to stop is helping others. I thought I had it bad, and I was feeling so sorry for myself, it was pathetic. The more I learn about others situations, I don't feel so bad about myself, but instead I want to serve others.  I've learn that I need to Smile through it all because a Frown helps no one!

Just never give up

I have never fought so hard in my life for something. I never knew how important something was in my life either. Getting out on my mission was so hard. The road wasn't all butterflies and rainbows. The day I was going to the MTC they were telling me I couldn't go out of the country and had to stay in the states for medical reasons. EVERYTHING has tried to stop me from going there, but there must be something trying to stop me because theres something THAT important that Satan's trying to fight me to stay away from. 

Canada, I am coming back.

The update:
Went to the nerve specialist now and guess what?! i do have major nerve damage but they have this new thing so he thinks he can get that part better in around a month..
      The jaw specialist who is working on the muscle damage and so that my jaw moving will work thinks he can get me clear in around a month and a half  or two IF i begin to progress..soo who knows..i could be out in two or three more months  hopefully. i have to talk to president and find out if i have to wait until transfers or what..who knows...i REALLY hope that i can go back to Wetaskiwin! so..goodness is happening!

For now I am enjoying my time here with my family. I am so blessed to have these silly brothers here with me caring for me. They do it all for me. 

The Unkown

     I went to the jaw specialist yesterday and it was hard to hear I am not progressing. I don't know if people really know what is wrong with me, because I tend to be vague with this. It is hard for me to talk about something that is so sensitive to me.

    Here is kinda the low down of it to understand as you read this. I have major muscle damage in my jaw, my jaw also moved after I got my wisdom teeth out 15 months ago. Because of my muscles being so damaged my nerves are going crazy and firing at the same time. When this all started, no one could give me a real answer, I just had to live with the pain. Sometimes the pain would go away, but it has decided not to anymore. It's kinda like having a 24/7 Charley horse on both sides of my jaw, except worse. I am not telling you to feel sorry for me. In fact, the exact opposite. Until I found out even what it was, it was worse to live with the unknown. 

     Could you imagine  living with the unknown? Not able to know what is going to happen? Turning it around from this I have thought about all the people who don't know not just about the gospel, but about heaven.

     When I was on my mission when I asked someone about Heaven and Hell, that person told me that they thought that 75% of people go to Hell. I learned from this person more than you would think. I am so grateful for going into life knowing things like that 75% of people are not going to Hell. The unknown is scary, and a lot of people don't know about the Gospel. Though I am not a missionary with a name tag, I can still be a missionary now, and share with people what I know. 
I don't want anyone to have to be scared of the unknown. If it is anything like how I felt when I didn't know what was wrong with my jaw, I don't want anyone to have to feel that way. 
If we can help with that, we should.

Maybe I have this trial right now for me to learn this type of thing. 

I am no longer afraid of the unknown.

Decide what I want.

I finally figured it out. I want to get through this more than anything. I am no longer afraid of how long it could take for my jaw to be fixed, but instead I am going to do everything in my power to get passed it.But how do I get passed it?
The real question is, what can I learn from this?
That is HOW I can get passed this.
Well, for one I am doing this blog. I am learning that I can help others. Whoever is reading this I guess haha. This is probably a pretty weird post but I wanted to explain why I am doing this.
From now on I hope I can spark the intrest of my readers a little more than this.
I love you all!
Never give up because God NEVER will give you something to hard for you. He knows what you can take.