The Mash Potatoes that Made Me Cry

      This past week a family gave me dinner, the best mashed potatoes, and gravy I have had. I don't know if they read this or not, for I think it's fair to not to share names either way. Anyways, This family I feel like have gone through so much more than me, they have a big trial yet they are so happy, kind, and serving ME?! If this isn't a reality check, I don't know what is.

                                     

        I think when you are stuck in a place where you feel alone, or that you don't have anyone there for you, you need to get out of that thinking quickly. Not only that, but if you feel sorry for yourself, the best way to stop is helping others. I thought I had it bad, and I was feeling so sorry for myself, it was pathetic. The more I learn about others situations, I don't feel so bad about myself, but instead I want to serve others.  I've learn that I need to Smile through it all because a Frown helps no one!

Just never give up

I have never fought so hard in my life for something. I never knew how important something was in my life either. Getting out on my mission was so hard. The road wasn't all butterflies and rainbows. The day I was going to the MTC they were telling me I couldn't go out of the country and had to stay in the states for medical reasons. EVERYTHING has tried to stop me from going there, but there must be something trying to stop me because theres something THAT important that Satan's trying to fight me to stay away from. 

Canada, I am coming back.

The update:
Went to the nerve specialist now and guess what?! i do have major nerve damage but they have this new thing so he thinks he can get that part better in around a month..
      The jaw specialist who is working on the muscle damage and so that my jaw moving will work thinks he can get me clear in around a month and a half  or two IF i begin to progress..soo who knows..i could be out in two or three more months  hopefully. i have to talk to president and find out if i have to wait until transfers or what..who knows...i REALLY hope that i can go back to Wetaskiwin! so..goodness is happening!

For now I am enjoying my time here with my family. I am so blessed to have these silly brothers here with me caring for me. They do it all for me. 

The Unkown

     I went to the jaw specialist yesterday and it was hard to hear I am not progressing. I don't know if people really know what is wrong with me, because I tend to be vague with this. It is hard for me to talk about something that is so sensitive to me.

    Here is kinda the low down of it to understand as you read this. I have major muscle damage in my jaw, my jaw also moved after I got my wisdom teeth out 15 months ago. Because of my muscles being so damaged my nerves are going crazy and firing at the same time. When this all started, no one could give me a real answer, I just had to live with the pain. Sometimes the pain would go away, but it has decided not to anymore. It's kinda like having a 24/7 Charley horse on both sides of my jaw, except worse. I am not telling you to feel sorry for me. In fact, the exact opposite. Until I found out even what it was, it was worse to live with the unknown. 

     Could you imagine  living with the unknown? Not able to know what is going to happen? Turning it around from this I have thought about all the people who don't know not just about the gospel, but about heaven.

     When I was on my mission when I asked someone about Heaven and Hell, that person told me that they thought that 75% of people go to Hell. I learned from this person more than you would think. I am so grateful for going into life knowing things like that 75% of people are not going to Hell. The unknown is scary, and a lot of people don't know about the Gospel. Though I am not a missionary with a name tag, I can still be a missionary now, and share with people what I know. 
I don't want anyone to have to be scared of the unknown. If it is anything like how I felt when I didn't know what was wrong with my jaw, I don't want anyone to have to feel that way. 
If we can help with that, we should.

Maybe I have this trial right now for me to learn this type of thing. 

I am no longer afraid of the unknown.

Decide what I want.

I finally figured it out. I want to get through this more than anything. I am no longer afraid of how long it could take for my jaw to be fixed, but instead I am going to do everything in my power to get passed it.But how do I get passed it?
The real question is, what can I learn from this?
That is HOW I can get passed this.
Well, for one I am doing this blog. I am learning that I can help others. Whoever is reading this I guess haha. This is probably a pretty weird post but I wanted to explain why I am doing this.
From now on I hope I can spark the intrest of my readers a little more than this.
I love you all!
Never give up because God NEVER will give you something to hard for you. He knows what you can take.